As you may have read in my previous posts I already tried a couple things before my diagnosis of HA. Clomid, Clomid + Metformin and a diagnostic hysterscopy. Nothing budged for me with these interventions, which was fine because at the time I wasn't trying to achieve pregnancy. Now it was time, years past during the journey of finding my HA diagnosis. In Spring of 2015 we started our TTC (trying to conceive) journey.
At the same time of embarking on our TTC journey I had switched jobs and now my insurance covered fertility treatment!! Bonus !! My RE suggested jumping right to injectable medications, as clomid would not work for me. We started with Follistim injections followed by a trigger shot of HCG when it was time. We decided we would try timed intercourse this round and if that didn't work pursue IUI next. I can't remember how often I was giving myself injections or for the length of time during the cycle. I am sure it varies from woman to woman. However, I do remember how nervous we were when my husband had to stick a needle in the cheek of my butt. I still can picture this in my mind LOL! Multiple ultrasounds and blood work accompanied this "fun" process. Which I am totally joking when I say its fun. Just making light of the situation. My first round/cycle of treatment was unsuccessful and followed by Ovarian Hyperstimulation (OHSS) and hair loss. OHSS put me out of work for a solid week. My hair loss was a huge kick in the gut. For me, my hair was always the thing I loved most about myself but admittedly took for granted during the days of trying to obtain the perfect body. My RE encouraged me to take a few months off to get my ovaries in good condition before trying again. This left me so sad and discouraged. I knew deep down inside I would become a Mother one day but I struggled as I saw everyone getting pregnant so easily before my eyes.
During my first round of fertility treatment I put a lot of weight on. I believe this was attributed to multiple factors such as "going all in", the fertility treatments themselves, OHSS and the hormones running through me that made me want to eat everything in sight ! I can't put all the money on my hormones making me eat, my body was in recovery mode and for the first time I was giving it anything it desired. Not gonna lie, I struggled with this A LOT. It was summer, I had multiple weddings (above picture is my hub and I at our first wedding of the season) and a trip to Vegas planned. Looking back, I can say I was extremely proud on how I handled this situation. Instead of turning to restricting food and exercising, I accepted my body for what it was. Yes, negative thoughts still popped up but I did my best to just acknowledge them and focus on positive things. For example- I am going to Vegas I am going to look SO FAT in a bathing suit. I replaced it with a positive thought such as, some people will never visit Vegas in their life and here I am on my second trip with people who love me for ME! Though I already made some positive changes such as eating intuitively, stopping exercise and working on body image. I really had to start digging deeper to help myself fully recover. For me I knew fertility treatments were not the sole answer to getting pregnant. After my first round/cycle I knew it was much more than medication but even more on continuing to fuel my body adequately, moving joyfully and cutting the damn stress. Which I had already started doing alot of self care things to cut stress but made an extra commitment to myself that from now until I achieved pregnancy/delivered the baby, I would become "present" in everyday life. This meant to start having fun, loose control more (and I mean this in a positive way- because I was extremely type A) and enjoy everything life had to offer me.
Who Needs a Period? They are a pain in the a** anyway !